Life is...

Life is a series of random accidents and mistakes. Some things happened because it's meant to & it's out of our control. Some events happens because of how we are on other people, may it be intentional or not but it's what we let to happened to us. Though the consequence may not take place right away, but Sooner or later, the consequence is there waiting for us... It's only an accident if it surprises us, but it's a mistake if we know it's coming yet we didn't do anything about it. Some accidents results wonderfully though, but some are nothing but big disasters in our lives that are beyond our control. A catastrophe we face. But mistakes? It's actually with in the bound of our control and depends on how we decide for things to happen. However and for whatever reasons, we don't always do anything to amend it but we just let it happened in full circles... So it keeps on happening in different time, in different ways over and over again. But still for the same reason we chose to tolerate and ignore some things... Until it hits us on our face and can no longer ditch it. And so we'll live with it, that one huge mistake for the rest of our lives... And wish nothing else, but for it to have never happened at all... Note: Originally Written last September 26, 2010

How I Wished To See...

Another ordinary day passed by
the sun was angry today.
It gives its heat badly all day.
The kind of heat that gives headache
and gets through your bones.
The flowers got so dry
and the leaves were weakened,
by the heat of the Sun
That shines upon them all day.
But the Sun's shines
came to an end, as always.
Sun silently sets down...

And now darkness is ready
to take over and conquer,
the world again...
With a bit of twist.
The Moon & Stars usually comes
along the darkness of the evening.
If rain don't feel pouring.
The Moon and the Stars,
It's what gives life at night.
How i wished to see ---
The moon & stars again tonight.
Because it lightens up our world,
When darkness tries to rule the universe.


Note: Originally Written last September 20, 2010

When Enough is Enough

When enough is enough... It's time to let go of the past And move on with your life. Look forward to your future with a smile on your face And be glad that you've finally gotten over it. Don't regret what hurts you then, instead learn the lessons it caused you. It made you stronger this time. And Don't Turn Back, Ever Again. ...For it ain't worth it anymore. Note: Originally Written last March 4, 2011

If That's What Love Is...

Sailing through the dark blue sea Feeling hopeless and lost. White water rafting through the wild river Going nowhere else but to the treacherous falls. Having a mixed feelings of excitement And loneliness at the same time. And if that's what love is for her, Her Heart says it's fine. She's willing to take that all, But her mind says otherwise. For she can't be dead again in the end. Gliding endlessly through the air up high With no parachutes and just waiting, Waiting for tornado to crash her down. Driving through a long winding road by the cliff Not knowing what lies ahead. Somehow not minding the craziness of riding along. And if that's what love is for her, Her Heart says, it's ready to take all the risk. But her mind is saying otherwise. If that's what Love is? Then she's Done... For she can't be shattered twice. And can't be dead, all for the same reasons. All for the same mistakes, though different in time. Note: Originally Written last  October 13, 2010

When Mind Wanders...

When mind is wandering on its own world It gives us thoughts of nothing... Nothing that would & could blank us out and brings us to the world of senseless thoughts. And stare on air frivolously, Looking like in the state of insanity. But other times when mind wanders, Sometimes a hint of something pops up. Something that we tend to ignore. Something that we ourselves don't really know what... 'Til we are given an idle moment, And does nothing but think. Think of things, that would make us think much more harder...  Note: Originally Written last September 20, 2010

Wishes She's Emotionally Numb...

She's there in her room, thinking what's going on w/her? She's confused... She thought she's okay, She's supposedly moving on And feeling happy again. But something came up. And in an instance, she's hurt & sad, knowing it. She hide's what she feels though still act normal and smile to people if it calls for it. Doesn't want to drag people into feeling what she feels. She cant afford to screw things up When things are yet. trying to work it out again. But her emotions' crushed again. She doesn't understand it. She wants to cry & burst it all out, but no tears are falling. She's too consumed with hurtful emotions inside her lately. She doesn't know why is it? She's collapsed and being weak again... She hate's the pain she's feeling. It's making her think of giving up her life. She's thinking, she doesn't want it she doesn't need it. But it is just how she feels. Drained, feeling sad & disappointed. Being weak, vulnerable & skeptical She's hiding in her room Couldn't avoid it and dwells what hurts her. Even if its killing her, deep inside. She doesn't show it still. But i know it, for sure... Note: Originally Written last June 2, 2010

Feelings Burning in Fire

Feelings burning in fire Mind's confused Trapped in Nowhere Everything looks indistinct. Can't think straight Frozen in time again, Wanted to see what's beyond What's across life? Not seeing anything, It's point blank It's getting darker & darker Leaning towards senseless thoughts. That's like a quick sand Pulling me down, eating me alive. Soul's drifting in a wild stream Stroke by lightning & thunder storm. What's going on??? I'm nervous, I can't breathe. I see nothing, but fear. I hear nothing, but my scream. Screaming for help... Or is it really for help? Or am i screaming out of anger? I don't know... Note: Originally Written last July 6, 2010