Life is...

Life is a series of random accidents and mistakes. Some things happened because it's meant to & it's out of our control. Some events happens because of how we are on other people, may it be intentional or not but it's what we let to happened to us. Though the consequence may not take place right away, but Sooner or later, the consequence is there waiting for us... It's only an accident if it surprises us, but it's a mistake if we know it's coming yet we didn't do anything about it. Some accidents results wonderfully though, but some are nothing but big disasters in our lives that are beyond our control. A catastrophe we face. But mistakes? It's actually with in the bound of our control and depends on how we decide for things to happen. However and for whatever reasons, we don't always do anything to amend it but we just let it happened in full circles... So it keeps on happening in different time, in different ways over and over again. But still for the same reason we chose to tolerate and ignore some things... Until it hits us on our face and can no longer ditch it. And so we'll live with it, that one huge mistake for the rest of our lives... And wish nothing else, but for it to have never happened at all... Note: Originally Written last September 26, 2010

How I Wished To See...

Another ordinary day passed by
the sun was angry today.
It gives its heat badly all day.
The kind of heat that gives headache
and gets through your bones.
The flowers got so dry
and the leaves were weakened,
by the heat of the Sun
That shines upon them all day.
But the Sun's shines
came to an end, as always.
Sun silently sets down...

And now darkness is ready
to take over and conquer,
the world again...
With a bit of twist.
The Moon & Stars usually comes
along the darkness of the evening.
If rain don't feel pouring.
The Moon and the Stars,
It's what gives life at night.
How i wished to see ---
The moon & stars again tonight.
Because it lightens up our world,
When darkness tries to rule the universe.


Note: Originally Written last September 20, 2010

When Enough is Enough

When enough is enough... It's time to let go of the past And move on with your life. Look forward to your future with a smile on your face And be glad that you've finally gotten over it. Don't regret what hurts you then, instead learn the lessons it caused you. It made you stronger this time. And Don't Turn Back, Ever Again. ...For it ain't worth it anymore. Note: Originally Written last March 4, 2011

If That's What Love Is...

Sailing through the dark blue sea Feeling hopeless and lost. White water rafting through the wild river Going nowhere else but to the treacherous falls. Having a mixed feelings of excitement And loneliness at the same time. And if that's what love is for her, Her Heart says it's fine. She's willing to take that all, But her mind says otherwise. For she can't be dead again in the end. Gliding endlessly through the air up high With no parachutes and just waiting, Waiting for tornado to crash her down. Driving through a long winding road by the cliff Not knowing what lies ahead. Somehow not minding the craziness of riding along. And if that's what love is for her, Her Heart says, it's ready to take all the risk. But her mind is saying otherwise. If that's what Love is? Then she's Done... For she can't be shattered twice. And can't be dead, all for the same reasons. All for the same mistakes, though different in time. Note: Originally Written last  October 13, 2010

When Mind Wanders...

When mind is wandering on its own world It gives us thoughts of nothing... Nothing that would & could blank us out and brings us to the world of senseless thoughts. And stare on air frivolously, Looking like in the state of insanity. But other times when mind wanders, Sometimes a hint of something pops up. Something that we tend to ignore. Something that we ourselves don't really know what... 'Til we are given an idle moment, And does nothing but think. Think of things, that would make us think much more harder...  Note: Originally Written last September 20, 2010

Wishes She's Emotionally Numb...

She's there in her room, thinking what's going on w/her? She's confused... She thought she's okay, She's supposedly moving on And feeling happy again. But something came up. And in an instance, she's hurt & sad, knowing it. She hide's what she feels though still act normal and smile to people if it calls for it. Doesn't want to drag people into feeling what she feels. She cant afford to screw things up When things are yet. trying to work it out again. But her emotions' crushed again. She doesn't understand it. She wants to cry & burst it all out, but no tears are falling. She's too consumed with hurtful emotions inside her lately. She doesn't know why is it? She's collapsed and being weak again... She hate's the pain she's feeling. It's making her think of giving up her life. She's thinking, she doesn't want it she doesn't need it. But it is just how she feels. Drained, feeling sad & disappointed. Being weak, vulnerable & skeptical She's hiding in her room Couldn't avoid it and dwells what hurts her. Even if its killing her, deep inside. She doesn't show it still. But i know it, for sure... Note: Originally Written last June 2, 2010

Feelings Burning in Fire

Feelings burning in fire Mind's confused Trapped in Nowhere Everything looks indistinct. Can't think straight Frozen in time again, Wanted to see what's beyond What's across life? Not seeing anything, It's point blank It's getting darker & darker Leaning towards senseless thoughts. That's like a quick sand Pulling me down, eating me alive. Soul's drifting in a wild stream Stroke by lightning & thunder storm. What's going on??? I'm nervous, I can't breathe. I see nothing, but fear. I hear nothing, but my scream. Screaming for help... Or is it really for help? Or am i screaming out of anger? I don't know... Note: Originally Written last July 6, 2010

"IT HURTS TO KNOW..."

I'm in love with you so much. I've never Loved anyone, like the way I'm loving you, and you know it's for real. You told me you're feeling the same way as i do for you. But do you even know what you're saying? Are you really in love with me? As you claimed so? Hmm, maybe yes... maybe no... I don't know what to believe in you anymore... Seems all along you've been lying. You very well know how much you mean to me You are my everything You owned my heart It beats only for you There maybe times that i got confused of my feelings, Yet you always managed to win me back all over again And made my heart whole once more... You're the reason why i feel alive You gave me butterflies in my stomach You make my heart goes wild and beats faster and slow at the same time... You're the only one that kept running through my mind, every single day of my life ever since I've met you. You are the one that I always long the most, to be with. Above all, you're the reason why i am in love this much, with someone I've never imagine would come into my life... You said I'm your world, your life, your everything too. You told me I'm the sun that brights your day, Your moon & stars that lights up your night... But now, i find it hard to believe you so... If your "LOVE" is true, Why do you hurt me so? Not just ones but countless times You made a fool out of me, You made me feel stupid, To believe all your lies... what have i done wrong? Am i not enough for you? Is my love isn't good enough For you to keep on lying? Yes, u made me happy and you complete me... But, you've also crushed my heart into pieces now. We had our precious moments, Only to realized now --- those were only stolen moments. And it's nothing like forever, as we thought so... Yet I cant be free from you. Cause my heart still says I love you still, even if--- But my mind wants to be freed though... I'm still jailed by my promises in you and i'll always will be, unless you'd set me free from those promises i said. Now, feels like it's the mistake i need to carry on... For i promised to love you 'til death do us part... Note: Originally Written last January 15, 2010

My Love, is My Life now!

Like what i've told you my boo, you add color in my life and lately you're the reason of my Happiness and sadness my love... Im the happiest every time we're talking, But im also the saddest when i heard, nothing at all from you... I don't know what you've done with me, but ever since we've been in love with each other. --- it seems our heart beat, as one... Im happy when you're happy, Im hurt when you're hurt, Im sick when you're sick, And im sad when you're sad... We may be far from each other now, but still, it didnt stop me from finding the love that makes all the difference in my life now. And you mean the world to me. How i wish our love for each other, would always stay the same for soooo long, if not forever. You've told me that --- Im your shadow, your world & your everything. And let me tell you this my boo, You're my only love, & you're my life... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MY BOO!!!   Note:Originally written last April 5, 2009

Nothing, but an empty space...

You're like the beautiful flower that grows in my ground and makes my garden more inviting and wonderful to be at... You're like the rain, that takes away the heat and the dust of my surroundings. And replaces it with your cool breeze that relaxes me. And in the darkness of the evenin', you're the star that shines So much in the sky, that gives my night brightness. And you're the moon, that gives light in my universe... But, now i'm wondering --- Where's that flower now? Where did the rain go? Where's my star, & my moon above? My world seems vague again, And im floating in the air, waiting And trying to find some answers... Why all of the sudden, --- i can see nothing, but an empty space. Note: Originally wrote this last April 7, 2009