"IT HURTS TO KNOW..."

I'm in love with you so much. I've never Loved anyone, like the way I'm loving you, and you know it's for real. You told me you're feeling the same way as i do for you. But do you even know what you're saying? Are you really in love with me? As you claimed so? Hmm, maybe yes... maybe no... I don't know what to believe in you anymore... Seems all along you've been lying. You very well know how much you mean to me You are my everything You owned my heart It beats only for you There maybe times that i got confused of my feelings, Yet you always managed to win me back all over again And made my heart whole once more... You're the reason why i feel alive You gave me butterflies in my stomach You make my heart goes wild and beats faster and slow at the same time... You're the only one that kept running through my mind, every single day of my life ever since I've met you. You are the one that I always long the most, to be with. Above all, you're the reason why i am in love this much, with someone I've never imagine would come into my life... You said I'm your world, your life, your everything too. You told me I'm the sun that brights your day, Your moon & stars that lights up your night... But now, i find it hard to believe you so... If your "LOVE" is true, Why do you hurt me so? Not just ones but countless times You made a fool out of me, You made me feel stupid, To believe all your lies... what have i done wrong? Am i not enough for you? Is my love isn't good enough For you to keep on lying? Yes, u made me happy and you complete me... But, you've also crushed my heart into pieces now. We had our precious moments, Only to realized now --- those were only stolen moments. And it's nothing like forever, as we thought so... Yet I cant be free from you. Cause my heart still says I love you still, even if--- But my mind wants to be freed though... I'm still jailed by my promises in you and i'll always will be, unless you'd set me free from those promises i said. Now, feels like it's the mistake i need to carry on... For i promised to love you 'til death do us part... Note: Originally Written last January 15, 2010