Wishes She's Emotionally Numb...

She's there in her room, thinking what's going on w/her? She's confused... She thought she's okay, She's supposedly moving on And feeling happy again. But something came up. And in an instance, she's hurt & sad, knowing it. She hide's what she feels though still act normal and smile to people if it calls for it. Doesn't want to drag people into feeling what she feels. She cant afford to screw things up When things are yet. trying to work it out again. But her emotions' crushed again. She doesn't understand it. She wants to cry & burst it all out, but no tears are falling. She's too consumed with hurtful emotions inside her lately. She doesn't know why is it? She's collapsed and being weak again... She hate's the pain she's feeling. It's making her think of giving up her life. She's thinking, she doesn't want it she doesn't need it. But it is just how she feels. Drained, feeling sad & disappointed. Being weak, vulnerable & skeptical She's hiding in her room Couldn't avoid it and dwells what hurts her. Even if its killing her, deep inside. She doesn't show it still. But i know it, for sure... Note: Originally Written last June 2, 2010