Life is...

Life is a series of random accidents and mistakes. Some things happened because it's meant to & it's out of our control. Some events happens because of how we are on other people, may it be intentional or not but it's what we let to happened to us. Though the consequence may not take place right away, but Sooner or later, the consequence is there waiting for us... It's only an accident if it surprises us, but it's a mistake if we know it's coming yet we didn't do anything about it. Some accidents results wonderfully though, but some are nothing but big disasters in our lives that are beyond our control. A catastrophe we face. But mistakes? It's actually with in the bound of our control and depends on how we decide for things to happen. However and for whatever reasons, we don't always do anything to amend it but we just let it happened in full circles... So it keeps on happening in different time, in different ways over and over again. But still for the same reason we chose to tolerate and ignore some things... Until it hits us on our face and can no longer ditch it. And so we'll live with it, that one huge mistake for the rest of our lives... And wish nothing else, but for it to have never happened at all... Note: Originally Written last September 26, 2010

How I Wished To See...

Another ordinary day passed by
the sun was angry today.
It gives its heat badly all day.
The kind of heat that gives headache
and gets through your bones.
The flowers got so dry
and the leaves were weakened,
by the heat of the Sun
That shines upon them all day.
But the Sun's shines
came to an end, as always.
Sun silently sets down...

And now darkness is ready
to take over and conquer,
the world again...
With a bit of twist.
The Moon & Stars usually comes
along the darkness of the evening.
If rain don't feel pouring.
The Moon and the Stars,
It's what gives life at night.
How i wished to see ---
The moon & stars again tonight.
Because it lightens up our world,
When darkness tries to rule the universe.


Note: Originally Written last September 20, 2010

When Enough is Enough

When enough is enough... It's time to let go of the past And move on with your life. Look forward to your future with a smile on your face And be glad that you've finally gotten over it. Don't regret what hurts you then, instead learn the lessons it caused you. It made you stronger this time. And Don't Turn Back, Ever Again. ...For it ain't worth it anymore. Note: Originally Written last March 4, 2011

If That's What Love Is...

Sailing through the dark blue sea Feeling hopeless and lost. White water rafting through the wild river Going nowhere else but to the treacherous falls. Having a mixed feelings of excitement And loneliness at the same time. And if that's what love is for her, Her Heart says it's fine. She's willing to take that all, But her mind says otherwise. For she can't be dead again in the end. Gliding endlessly through the air up high With no parachutes and just waiting, Waiting for tornado to crash her down. Driving through a long winding road by the cliff Not knowing what lies ahead. Somehow not minding the craziness of riding along. And if that's what love is for her, Her Heart says, it's ready to take all the risk. But her mind is saying otherwise. If that's what Love is? Then she's Done... For she can't be shattered twice. And can't be dead, all for the same reasons. All for the same mistakes, though different in time. Note: Originally Written last  October 13, 2010

When Mind Wanders...

When mind is wandering on its own world It gives us thoughts of nothing... Nothing that would & could blank us out and brings us to the world of senseless thoughts. And stare on air frivolously, Looking like in the state of insanity. But other times when mind wanders, Sometimes a hint of something pops up. Something that we tend to ignore. Something that we ourselves don't really know what... 'Til we are given an idle moment, And does nothing but think. Think of things, that would make us think much more harder...  Note: Originally Written last September 20, 2010

Wishes She's Emotionally Numb...

She's there in her room, thinking what's going on w/her? She's confused... She thought she's okay, She's supposedly moving on And feeling happy again. But something came up. And in an instance, she's hurt & sad, knowing it. She hide's what she feels though still act normal and smile to people if it calls for it. Doesn't want to drag people into feeling what she feels. She cant afford to screw things up When things are yet. trying to work it out again. But her emotions' crushed again. She doesn't understand it. She wants to cry & burst it all out, but no tears are falling. She's too consumed with hurtful emotions inside her lately. She doesn't know why is it? She's collapsed and being weak again... She hate's the pain she's feeling. It's making her think of giving up her life. She's thinking, she doesn't want it she doesn't need it. But it is just how she feels. Drained, feeling sad & disappointed. Being weak, vulnerable & skeptical She's hiding in her room Couldn't avoid it and dwells what hurts her. Even if its killing her, deep inside. She doesn't show it still. But i know it, for sure... Note: Originally Written last June 2, 2010

Feelings Burning in Fire

Feelings burning in fire Mind's confused Trapped in Nowhere Everything looks indistinct. Can't think straight Frozen in time again, Wanted to see what's beyond What's across life? Not seeing anything, It's point blank It's getting darker & darker Leaning towards senseless thoughts. That's like a quick sand Pulling me down, eating me alive. Soul's drifting in a wild stream Stroke by lightning & thunder storm. What's going on??? I'm nervous, I can't breathe. I see nothing, but fear. I hear nothing, but my scream. Screaming for help... Or is it really for help? Or am i screaming out of anger? I don't know... Note: Originally Written last July 6, 2010

"IT HURTS TO KNOW..."

I'm in love with you so much. I've never Loved anyone, like the way I'm loving you, and you know it's for real. You told me you're feeling the same way as i do for you. But do you even know what you're saying? Are you really in love with me? As you claimed so? Hmm, maybe yes... maybe no... I don't know what to believe in you anymore... Seems all along you've been lying. You very well know how much you mean to me You are my everything You owned my heart It beats only for you There maybe times that i got confused of my feelings, Yet you always managed to win me back all over again And made my heart whole once more... You're the reason why i feel alive You gave me butterflies in my stomach You make my heart goes wild and beats faster and slow at the same time... You're the only one that kept running through my mind, every single day of my life ever since I've met you. You are the one that I always long the most, to be with. Above all, you're the reason why i am in love this much, with someone I've never imagine would come into my life... You said I'm your world, your life, your everything too. You told me I'm the sun that brights your day, Your moon & stars that lights up your night... But now, i find it hard to believe you so... If your "LOVE" is true, Why do you hurt me so? Not just ones but countless times You made a fool out of me, You made me feel stupid, To believe all your lies... what have i done wrong? Am i not enough for you? Is my love isn't good enough For you to keep on lying? Yes, u made me happy and you complete me... But, you've also crushed my heart into pieces now. We had our precious moments, Only to realized now --- those were only stolen moments. And it's nothing like forever, as we thought so... Yet I cant be free from you. Cause my heart still says I love you still, even if--- But my mind wants to be freed though... I'm still jailed by my promises in you and i'll always will be, unless you'd set me free from those promises i said. Now, feels like it's the mistake i need to carry on... For i promised to love you 'til death do us part... Note: Originally Written last January 15, 2010

My Love, is My Life now!

Like what i've told you my boo, you add color in my life and lately you're the reason of my Happiness and sadness my love... Im the happiest every time we're talking, But im also the saddest when i heard, nothing at all from you... I don't know what you've done with me, but ever since we've been in love with each other. --- it seems our heart beat, as one... Im happy when you're happy, Im hurt when you're hurt, Im sick when you're sick, And im sad when you're sad... We may be far from each other now, but still, it didnt stop me from finding the love that makes all the difference in my life now. And you mean the world to me. How i wish our love for each other, would always stay the same for soooo long, if not forever. You've told me that --- Im your shadow, your world & your everything. And let me tell you this my boo, You're my only love, & you're my life... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MY BOO!!!   Note:Originally written last April 5, 2009

Nothing, but an empty space...

You're like the beautiful flower that grows in my ground and makes my garden more inviting and wonderful to be at... You're like the rain, that takes away the heat and the dust of my surroundings. And replaces it with your cool breeze that relaxes me. And in the darkness of the evenin', you're the star that shines So much in the sky, that gives my night brightness. And you're the moon, that gives light in my universe... But, now i'm wondering --- Where's that flower now? Where did the rain go? Where's my star, & my moon above? My world seems vague again, And im floating in the air, waiting And trying to find some answers... Why all of the sudden, --- i can see nothing, but an empty space. Note: Originally wrote this last April 7, 2009

"Constant Change!"

For the couple of days, as the sun rises in the morning --- I'm always anxious to know What life has to offer... What's the beauty, that it would bring to brighten up my day... And how can i make My love ones Happy --- And I'm always hopeful, Everything will turn out great and wonderful for everyone... But as my days turns to gloomy and sad, it made me realized one thing, That i should not depend My Happiness on others. I should not count too much on my expectation in them. I should not make their ways of showing their Love for me, as the main Reason for me to be happy. And for me to consider --- my day complete. Cause no matter how much the person loves me and Promises me to always, Brighten up my day --- I still can't be certain that things will always be the same for us everyday. Sooner or later, things will change eventually, no matter what. For we are living in a World of constant change... Blogstream post last April 8, 2009/ Wednesday

You're My Everything, My Love!

You are the apple
of my eyes.
The clean air
that I breathe.
You are the music
to my ears,
and the beat
of my heart.

You took away,
the sadness in my face.
You are the reason
of my happiness.
You are my strength,
and the beauty
of my life...

You are the stars
that shines upon me.
You are the universe
that I revolve around.
And you mean,
the world to me.
You are the rainbow
that put colors,
in my life...

You're like a drug
that keeps me calm.
You're my inspiration,
that keeps me alive.
You're the reason,
why I'm in love
and feel loved by...

You are mine.
My boo, My lover,
My everything.
And I'm all yours,
My Love!!!


Blogstream post last April 21, 2009/ Tuesday

"LOVING YOU, MEANS FOREVER LOVE!"

The way how I'm loving you
is reason enough for me
to say, I LOVE YOU FOREVER!
I have dreamed of forever love
and i wanted you to be it
I want you to be my last love.

Forever may not be ours,
Yet it's what we're hoping for
and dreaming of to have one day.
Forever may be too deep
of a word to use and say.
Yet it's what we both think of
and adores at this point of our lives,
Ever since our loved grows.

Forever love maybe hard to keep
Cause a lot could happen,
that would change how we are
feeling for each other now...
But for me, loving you means forever.

Holding on to what we have,
somehow means sacrificing somethings
and must be worked out both ways.
Yet it made all the difference
in my life these days, and
It made our relationship for real.
Because my love for you,
would be forever more...

So, I'm willing to do anything
to make you stay with me
and make our relationship stronger.
And maintain the bond of love
we have inside our hearts & soul.

Let's always make things
work out between us both...
Let us both be patient,
and be more understanding.
Let's have more happy memories,
to cherish and remember always.

Our loved for one another
is worth fighting for...
And i would embrace it endlessly.
For loving you means always & forever.
May i be dreaming or not,
But it is what i hoped,
and it is what i wanted, ---
To Love You Forever More...!  

 

 

Blogstream Post last: August 11, 2009 (Tuesday)

Wow! I wrote this 2 years ago... Uhmmm... I find it interesting that I'm starting to feel that way again for the same person... I may have fell out of romantic love for you once, but I've never stopped loving you at all. Ever since then, you're always special to me Now and Then... 'Til Forever i hope... :-)

YOU'RE SO FAR, YET I LOVE YOU THE MOST!

We've met not that long ago.

Yet, you're the one

so close to me.

You're at the other

side of the world.

Yet, you're the one

I always see in silhouette

in other people around.

I haven't heard your

voice for a while.

Yet, its your voice

that i always hear

softly whispering me.

You're so far from me now.

Yet, you kept running

through my head.

I'm not sure when

will i see you.

Yet, you locked

my whole heart

together with yours.

I was hesitant to

fall for you at first.

And kinda held back

my love for you then.

Yet, i have fallen

in love with you.

And I'm so much

in love with you ---

Now and forever more... 

 Blogstream Post last: August 22, 2009 (Saturday)

You had me at my worst, She has me at my best...:)

You had me when i was down & low You pulled me up & inspired me You made me feel happy again You gave me back my life You made me feel how it is to live again with goals in life to look forward to... You've opened up my heart once more, the heart that's been numbed & unattached You showered it with fun & laughter You've taught me how to live life with a smile on my face And a wonderful feeling inside of me once more... What we have now may not Be like what we had before But rest assured you'll always be a part Of who i am now... And I'm thankful we still have each other now & always. And i want you to know That it's because of you, Now She has me at my best And i owe it to you... 'Cause you've opened my heart And taught me how to love again. If not for you, who once put colors in my world I wouldn't be in love with her Now this much & even more, As i had loved you then. And I'm grateful to you Now and then...       Blogstream post last: April 4, 2010 (Sunday)

It's All a Matter of Choice!

Meeting you was Fate, becoming your friend was a choice, falling in love with you is a feeling that's beyond my control. Perhaps it's one of those things in life that we need to feel at some point. Something that we need to experience and think about... Feelings are emotions felt by our hearts. Thoughts are ideas that's inside our mind. Sometimes what our heart's felt are strongly against what's on our mind. And it's all up to us what we choose. Everything in this world on how we live our life is a matter of decisions we make. Either we follow what's on our mind, or what's inside our heart... But it's not what we feel, nor what we think of... But rather what we chose to do with what we feel and think of. We are who we are base on our choice. Everything in this world is, But a matter of choice...   Note: Written on Blogstream last           Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Reply to Whit's Comment

Yes Whit, i will remember that... And Thanks! :)
By the way I'm posting my supposedly reply on your comment, because 'til now im still having problems and can't see my own posted comments on my own page everytime i reply on a comment. Hehehe...

WHEN ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

When enough is enough...
It's time to let go of the past
And move on with your life.
Look forward to your future
with a smile on your face
And be glad that
you've finally gotten over it.
Don't regret what hurts you then,
instead learn the lessons it caused you.
It made you stronger this time.
And Don't Turn Back, Ever Again.
...For it ain't worth it anymore.

 

 

Written on Blogstream last:

March 4, 2011

IF THAT'S WHAT LOVE IS...

Sailing through the dark blue sea Feeling hopeless and lost. White water rafting through the wild river Going nowhere else but to the treacherous falls. Having a mixed feelings of excitement And loneliness at the same time. And if that's what love is for her, Her Heart says it's fine. She's willing to take that all, But her mind says otherwise. For she can't be dead again in the end. Gliding endlessly through the air up high With no parachutes and just waiting, Waiting for tornado to crash her down. Driving through a long winding road by the cliff Not knowing what lies ahead. Somehow not minding the craziness of riding along. And if that's what love is for her, Her Heart says, it's ready to take all the risk. But her mind is saying otherwise. If that's what Love is? Then she's Done... For she can't be shattered twice. And can't be dead, all for the same reasons. All for the same mistakes, though different in time.   Posted on Blogstream last: Oct. 23, 2010   *Note: Originally written last Oct. 13, 2010 Supposedly not intended to post this here, coz it's crap. But whatever so its here now. hahahaha...

When Mind Wanders...

When mind is wandering on its own world It gives us thoughts of nothing... Nothing that would & could blank us out and brings us to the world of senseless thoughts. And stare on air frivolously, Looking like in the state of insanity. But other times when mind wanders, A hint of something pops up. Something that we tend to ignore. Something that we ourselves don't really know what... 'Til we are given an idle moment, And does nothing but think. Think of things, that would make us think much more harder...  Written on Blogstream last: Sept. 20, 2010