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Friday, April 22, 2011

Reply to Whit's Comment

Yes Whit, i will remember that... And Thanks! :)
By the way I'm posting my supposedly reply on your comment, because 'til now im still having problems and can't see my own posted comments on my own page everytime i reply on a comment. Hehehe...

Thursday, April 21, 2011

WHEN ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

When enough is enough...
It's time to let go of the past
And move on with your life.
Look forward to your future
with a smile on your face
And be glad that
you've finally gotten over it.
Don't regret what hurts you then,
instead learn the lessons it caused you.
It made you stronger this time.
And Don't Turn Back, Ever Again.
...For it ain't worth it anymore.

Written on Blogstream last:

March 4, 2011

IF THAT'S WHAT LOVE IS...

Sailing through the dark blue sea
Feeling hopeless and lost.
White water rafting through the wild river
Going nowhere else but to the treacherous falls.
Having a mixed feelings of excitement
And loneliness at the same time.
And if that's what love is for her,
Her Heart says it's fine.
She's willing to take that all,
But her mind says otherwise.
For she can't be dead again in the end.

Gliding endlessly through the air up high
With no parachutes and just waiting,
Waiting for tornado to crash her down.
Driving through a long winding road by the cliff
Not knowing what lies ahead.
Somehow not minding the craziness of riding along.
And if that's what love is for her,
Her Heart says, it's ready to take all the risk.
But her mind is saying otherwise.
If that's what Love is? Then she's Done...
For she can't be shattered twice.
And can't be dead, all for the same reasons.
All for the same mistakes, though different in time.

Posted on Blogstream last:

Oct. 23, 2010

*Note: Originally written last Oct. 13, 2010
Supposedly not intended to post this here,
coz it's crap. But whatever so its here now.
hahahaha...

When Mind Wanders...

When mind is wandering on its own world
It gives us thoughts of nothing...
Nothing that would & could blank us out
and brings us to the world of senseless thoughts.
And stare on air frivolously,
Looking like in the state of insanity.
But other times when mind wanders,
A hint of something pops up.
Something that we tend to ignore.
Something that we ourselves
don't really know what...
'Til we are given an idle moment,
And does nothing but think.
Think of things, that would make us
think much more harder...

Written on Blogstream last:

Sept. 20, 2010

Saturday, March 26, 2011

BEST FRIEND???

I liked you the first time you smiled at me.
I may not admit it coz we met at the wrong time.
But i know i'm not being honest with myself,
until we became friends & got closer w/each other.
From then on we shared many things,
your pals & mine group into one, cause of us.

I thought then, i'd like you to be
My "Best Friend", even though
I'm aware of our differences,
Still i wanted it to be you,
Because that's how i valued you.
'Coz i thought, all the while
you also really like my company.
For i'm unconscious of the fact,
--- that you're suffocated already.

So, not knowing it would be the end of
our friendship w/c i've say, had just started.
Thought you cared enough that
you'd give me little importance
and remember me sometimes...

But i was wrong, very wrong.
And it hurts coz though you're aware ---
That i am already hurt inside
You still didn't show,
you cared for our friendship.
Instead, you've avoided me abruptly
and left me behind...
It hurts me a lot, i felt the
friendship was one-sided
and i've had to admit that too.

Guess the blame would be on me,
for not trying so hard to
get out of my dream world...
A world of make belief.
It's just perfect for me ---
'coz it happens every time i thought
i already had a person, that i can
consider one of my Best Friends.

I mold them to like me for,
who and what i am and would accept me.
And not for who and what they wanted
me to be, to understand me and be honest
with me as much as i am to them.
Not knowing that i'm already
over throwing myself... im so naive
that i couldn't actually please everyone.
Giving too much care, love, honesty
and trust hurts me, all over again.
It's then i realized, nobody cared enough,
even a bit as much as i did...

After all this time, i thought
You could be my best friend, or
so i thought you were... But damn it!
It's all the same with you.

And now i'm starting to feel sorry for myself.
Because what happened w/the others before
repeat itself with you again.
It's hard to face the truth but,
I know i had to blame myself, not you.
So, no use pretending that you're still here.
For now, it's just right to drift ---
In my own world again naturally...

To patch up the things that i've left,
But my hope is still there to have ---
A "Best Friend" just right here with me.
In spite of what happened between us,
i'm still hoping it is you.
But this time, it will be a different me.
For i already know my limitations and
for you've hurt me sooo deep.

I guess you're right, that
i must not show too much care for someone.
It might only frustrate me nor
suffocate a friend, ones more...
But i still thank thee, for i know you have
A part in improving me, as a better person, now...

Note: Originally Written last Feb. 25, 2001 and
Posted on blogstream March 8, 2009

"...IF U DONT WANNA END UP W/A LOSING END,
LEARN TO VALUE & LOVE THE PERSON,
WHO BOTH VALUED & LOVED YOU.
CAUSE NOTHING IS FOREVER. ---
THOUGH LONG LASTING IS POSSIBLE,
BUT STILL NOT FOREVER..."

"OUR FRIENDSHIP, THAT I ADORE"

One day I've met you

And it wasn't planned at all.

Yet we easily clicked together

You've accepted my friendship

And so did i on you...

In such a short period of time

Your friendship means a lot to me.

You are my dear friend &

You are so special to me...

When you're sad, I'm affected.

Because i have learned

to love you much, & for that

I let you know me more ---

More than anybody else,

That I have became close with.

Honestly, i find it strange

Cause i cant explain how?

Nor do i know why?, either...

But still I've let you know me

through whats on my mind

And what's inside my heart.

The hidden emotions that,

I've kept from other people ---

I've allowed you to know, somehow.

You've known me like no one else does.

Ever since, i have known you

I can't seemed to hide ---

any secrets from you...

Which is unusual of me,

Cause i actually am not use to

Spill everything out to my friends

What's inside my thoughts.

Most of my friends then, complained.

That I'm unfair & mysterious.

Before you came into my life,

I have never let anybody know me,

Like the way you're knowing me now...

I don't want to feel vulnerable.

For me, my emotions are mine

To deal with & certainly not yours.

Yet with you, i can't seemed to

Refrain myself from telling you

without you even forcing me to...

It's like i have known you

All my life, even if i just

Met you not too long ago...

And i like to know you more.

But the more i want to know you

Even better each time we talk,

the more i seemed to make things

harder for you and i messed-up.

The more I'm being transparent w/you

I somehow seemed to spoil your day

And pisses you off, unintentionally.

And i made you mad at me, instead.

It's like my being impulsive

On things that i would say of you,

Usually gets through your nerves.

And as your friend, it hurts me.

I feel like i don't have the right

To just speak up what i felt,

What i thought of you and ---

Most especially, i shouldn't

get hurt by your cursing words

when it comes to things about you.

Cause i might only make you

Angry and be annoyed at me...

I don't want me to be the reason

for you to feel bad that way.

I don't want to cause any pain on you

Because of what i would like

to say or do, next time...

It's actually hurting me

each time, I've irritated you.

By the things I've said, that

i didn't really mean to...

I don't know how to know you ---

Even better anymore, without

Causing any damage in our friendship.

Without you getting mad & hurt,

--- because of me...

I love you my friend,

You are so dear to me...

But i just don't know how

to be a better friend for you.

For that, i can't afford

Pissing you off, of me.

I don't want to keep ---

Making you feel bad in any way,

only because i messed-up

with my words again and again.

I can't afford to be one

Of the reasons why you're mad.

Cause i definitely don't like

how I'm makin' you feel

When i mess-up on you...

So I'm thinking from now on

I better off control myself,

From knowing you even more...

I think you're right, i shouldn't

Expect too much from you...

So, i will try to keep

my distance from you,

even if it will hurt me so badly.

For i know, it will hurt me more,

When one day will come ---

that, i might not be able to

understand you like the way

I'm doing now, same as you're

Trying to understand me.

i also don't want us to come to

a point where both of us,

won't be this patient with

each other and regret after wards.

So i'd rather be hurt,

Than hurt you my friend...

For I'm only a person who also gets mad

When I'm already deeply hurt.

Note: Posted in blogstream last April 18, 2009

"I'D RATHER BE HURT, THAN HURT YOU...!"